Depression Strikes Again

Today, I hate too much.

It sucks.

I can’t eat a bite without

Spitting it back out.

I had 3 pieces of sushi

On Saturday.

A bite of a cookie

Yesterday.

3 shots of whiskey

Maybe it was 5…

2 shots of tequila

6 or 10 or 15 beers

6 glasses of Cabernet Sauvignon

Over four days.

And my meds, of course.

I just want to sleep.

I don’t want to think.

My keys are gone.

My heart is drawn

To darkness

Again.

Involuntary awakenings.

*

So I’ll sip on the broth of this soup

I might fish out a carrot or two.

That will get me through–

This current plague of hate.

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  1. I know the feeling my friend, I feel the same way today, after I binge on alcohol over the weekend. Today is my first sober day. Stay sober for a couple of weekends, then I fuck up again. I hope that you through this and feel better.

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    1. Thanks for the comment! It was a tough weekend and I definitely didn’t hold back from the crying or binge drinking. Hopefully a few days/weeks will get me back on track. Good luck to you!

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