My brain. My heart. My body.
In complete and utter exhaustion.
I called my pill pusher to see if I could up my Zoloft by 25mg.
75mg down the hatch.
The attacks have commenced
On a daily basis–without bias.
My chest feels compressed
And predominately over stressed.
Stomach aches. Back aches. Heart aches–
But my head only aches
In a confounding state.
Seemingly, nothing to comprehend.
Trial and Error.
Fight. Flight. Freeze.
I am freezing–no frozen.
To the core.
Chasing butterflies is no longer applicable.
I’m just drowning in the uncontrollable.
And it is exhausting.